serba kekurangan

nak update pon serba salah...
tp setakat share with u..
i have no one yg can understand my feeling...
as a chubby gurl..

sedih bila org ckap..org chubby ni lemah..
org camni xleh nak buat aktiviti yg contohnya cam p camping ka, daki bukit ka, selam ka, renang ka..
tp bukan smua xleh...tp alhamdulillah la aku bleh lagi..2 kelebihan yg Allah bagi dekat aku..

sedih bila org cakap..org chubby ni xdak sapa nak kwn...
kononnya tgk rupa paras and body size..trus xmau kawan..
tp alhamdulillah...aku maseh ada kawan2 yg nak berkawan ngan aku...
terima kasih housemates, classmates and suma kwn2 kat skolah menengah n rendah dulu..

sedih bila org cakap..org chubby ni asyik makan ja...
yg ni makan dalam..kami bukan asyik makan ja..
masalahnya kami akan amik masa yg lama untuk menjadi slim and beautiful..
kalo nak kurus boleh dlm masa 5 minit...dh lama dh aku buat...serius,,...

sedih bila org ckap..org chubby ni pyh nak cari baju...
yg 2 aku sedih...mmg la lama ckit sebab xkan kami nak pakai pakaian yg sendat..
malu la...tp Allah kurniakan badan mcm ni...
aku bersyukur...aku sihat walafiat..

ada jugak org ckap orang chubby ni xleh nak melawa...
sebab apa? sebab mana ada baju yg cantik2 yg saiz besaq..
ada certain yg kata "eleh...nak melawa konon...xcantik langsung. dah la badan besaq".
xdak langsung komen yg membina...
tp aku sedaq aku xyah nak melawa..ckup la sekadar sedap mata memandang...

then, org slalu cakap org chubby ni xdak sapa yg nak...
yg 2 aku sedih jugak...knapa harus tgk bdan...
yg 2 yg aku xfham...knapa xtgk perangai n akhlak dia...
knapa harus badan dia???tp Allah dh tentukan jodoh dia kan..
kalau ada 2 adalah..xkan boleh dibawak ke mana pon...

semua yg aku critakan kat ats 2...
based on experience aku sndiri..
aku mmg dri kecik mcm ni...
so jgn judge people based on badan n kecantikan dia saja..
smua bnda dia ats ni pernah membuatkan aku down sgt2...
kecewa n pernah org xmau kwn dgn aku sebab aku ni chubby..
sdih sgt2...tp aku maafkan ampa smua bcoz aku sedaq diri aku ni sapa...
tp aku suka dgn kehidupan aku...maseh ada kwn2 yg baik n sentiasa menyokong aku..
alhamdulillah...trima kaseh...

*2 3 hari ni aku dihantui dgn perasaan yg down sgt disebabkan bnda ni..doakan aku supaya lebih tabah n yakin dengan diri aku..amiiinnnn.....*

miserable week!

fuh fuh fuh....
berhabuk ropanya blog ni...lama xupdate kot..
ha..ni rsa cam nak update plak..


alhamdulillah...
dh habeh dh seminggu yang mcm nak gila 2...
seriously la...
igt main2 ka..
mmg sangat2 gila..mcm nak pecah kpala hotak ni..
mikir apo pon xtau la...
bersyukur la sgt dh habeh dh..
tp kan/...ada jugak 2 tp tp
assignment mai bertimpa-timpa
ka aku yg tangguh hah!
bukan sengaja la...
tp mmg xsempat...bz truk la..
xpercaya tnya kwn2...
tdoq lewat p klas kna tgur ngan lecturer
bukan sekali dua
3 kali...malulah...tp sori sgt2 puan...saya dh xmampu mnahan mata ni...
serious puan...saya dh xksah puan mrah saya...yg saya tau sya nak tdoq..

*saya tau puan marah sebab xtumpu lecture puan kan...mintak maaf banyk2 puan..next class i will concentrate...insyaAllah...

tp kan...rsanya minggu ni kan...nak jd cam mggu lepas gak la...
tp kureng ckit kot...dh la ada test phonology...nak submit SBE lagi...
SBE 2 bukan skit woo...
banyak woo...takot la plak...
bukannya apa...pasai xsiap lagi la..
padan muka! asyik tangguh ja..

k lah...panjang berjela aih...igt xdak keja lain ka dayah oi?

anyone who read this blog..please pray for me for this Tuesday quiz...tq so much :)


NEVER GIVE UP!  

if we are meant to be...you can live in my heart without any rent..

hye!

I'm done with both EDU paper..and 2 more papers to go!
can't wait..nak cuti ....release my otak from all problems..

busy preparing and study for my next exam  *stadi la sgt
but one thing that keep disturbing my mind yg srabot cam hapa tah...
is that ............
arghhh!!!!
please go away
go away!!
go away!! *cam zeeman la plak*=)

i don't want to be like last time..
it's not the right time to think and srabut with that kind of love...
i'm not preparing it for everyone..
just see the future..
if Allah said that we are meant to each other..
yeah I accept it..
but if not...
what can i do?
just look in front and don't hope anything from me..
i'm not ready for it..
i'm just focus in my studies and not for that...
not even a second..

believe me..if we are meant to each other...
you can come and live in my heart..and i'm not asking you for the rent..


*love can change and shift...i don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time*

lupa nk bgtau...can't wait to move in our new house with my soulmates...zirah,farah, hajati,tobiaq, and not forget nurah...please accept us well bcoz...our voice can make the whole building shaking...haahhahhah  =)

alhamdulillah...

hi peeps!!
it's been a long time not scribbling in this beautiful wall..
hehe (prasan la plak kan..)
thousand assigments wait for me there...
and dont know how to start it...
but...all praise to Allah SWT because we have passed the IP presentation..
which make me suffer,...and..
 I dont even realize about my birthday..
this is my first time being like this..
thanks to all my crazy friends (oppss..sory) farah, zirah, chika tobby, beehah, ika, wiyah and hajati..
for their surprise...
thank u so much..never forget this.
love u all til die(xbleyh blah btoi)...hehehe
ok peeps..
have too many assignments to do...
i cant waste my time ...(ceyh..padahal keja tdoq ja)..
see u!! 

:)

ooo...what's up?
it's been a long time ago i wrote for my entry..
and now...i try to create a new blog!!
it's just a short entry for new blog..
hope u alls can help me in making this..:)


tata..:]

hurm!!!

hi peeps!!

tonight i keep thinking of someone...


p/s: hope u are in a good condition...
wherever u are
please do ur job well
i always pray the best for u..
:)